My Feelings -Jeopardy- (Part X)

(Wow. Part X… My feelings are really screwed up xD)

I have probably jeopardized her life.

She could be having my child.

If she is, she might be kicked out of her house.

Then she’d be left with nothing.

And it’s all my fault.

She’s scared, well, very scared.

And I don’t blame her if she hates me.

Maybe we both weren’t ready for this.

I was.

But she’s re-assured me that her life will be down the toilet.

All I can do is be upset and cry.

I’ll see her today if she wants me over.

Comfort her as much as I can.

She has always wanted to be a mummy.

And I’ve always wanted to be a dad.

But with nothing to fall back on.

…

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My Feelings -Promises- (Part IX)

Why should I make promises anymore?

No-one listens or takes it in.

When I promise something, I try so damn hard to stick by it.

“I promise

that I will always be there for you

that I will never ever leave your side

that I want to make you the most happiest person in the world

and I will never stop loving you.”

Then again, no-one believes me.

I spill my feelings out.

I never make it heard.

Maybe I am being too quiet.

Or maybe I am being too loud to get some attention.

Nobody sees that,

I love her to bits.

I would do anything for her.

I would die for her.

I want to be married and have a family with her.

She IS my life.

She IS my everything.

And I DO promise that I will try to keep my promises.

Even if you don’t think I will.

I shall not let you down.

Like others have.

My Feelings -The Radical Annoyance- (Part VIII)

Back to doing my feelings.

Maybe I need to vent.

There are just some bastards in this world who need to be shot.

Shot in the face with a rocket launcher.

I don’t like being like this to be honest.

It sometimes sends me crazy.

She’s my everything.

My Lobster (soul mate)

Still..

..being single..

..really sucks.

I do need her.

I need alot more than she thinks.

I love her so very very much.

I think she feels the same way.

But sometimes people get involved to quickly.

Take Paedo-Tony for example.

What a jerk.

Seriously.

She’s known him for like… 2 weeks and well..

..I don’t trust him.

He’s just a 25-year old twat.

Why can’t he find someone his own age instead of picking on the one I truly love?

It isn’t really fair.

He has a girlfriend yet he wants to cheat on her.

He has no respect for women what-so-ever.

It annoys me.

He should die as well.

Along with Rich-twat and Slag-Cuntingham.

They’re probably shacking it up as I type this up.

Wouldn’t surprise me.

Anyway, back on topic.

Tony should look for his girlfriend, wherever she.

Ask her friends, dipshit.

Don’t you dare make a move on Lottie.

Or I will kill you.

…..

Rant over for now.

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Delayed

Sorry for the delay.

Been through some crap and my computer doesn’t even work.

Meh.

I’ll TRY post up every now and again.

Anyway.. back to my feelings.