My Feelings -Promises- (Part IX)

Why should I make promises anymore?

No-one listens or takes it in.

When I promise something, I try so damn hard to stick by it.

“I promise

that I will always be there for you

that I will never ever leave your side

that I want to make you the most happiest person in the world

and I will never stop loving you.”

Then again, no-one believes me.

I spill my feelings out.

I never make it heard.

Maybe I am being too quiet.

Or maybe I am being too loud to get some attention.

Nobody sees that,

I love her to bits.

I would do anything for her.

I would die for her.

I want to be married and have a family with her.

She IS my life.

She IS my everything.

And I DO promise that I will try to keep my promises.

Even if you don’t think I will.

I shall not let you down.

Like others have.

My Feelings -The Radical Annoyance- (Part VIII)

Back to doing my feelings.

Maybe I need to vent.

There are just some bastards in this world who need to be shot.

Shot in the face with a rocket launcher.

I don’t like being like this to be honest.

It sometimes sends me crazy.

She’s my everything.

My Lobster (soul mate)

Still..

..being single..

..really sucks.

I do need her.

I need alot more than she thinks.

I love her so very very much.

I think she feels the same way.

But sometimes people get involved to quickly.

Take Paedo-Tony for example.

What a jerk.

Seriously.

She’s known him for like… 2 weeks and well..

..I don’t trust him.

He’s just a 25-year old twat.

Why can’t he find someone his own age instead of picking on the one I truly love?

It isn’t really fair.

He has a girlfriend yet he wants to cheat on her.

He has no respect for women what-so-ever.

It annoys me.

He should die as well.

Along with Rich-twat and Slag-Cuntingham.

They’re probably shacking it up as I type this up.

Wouldn’t surprise me.

Anyway, back on topic.

Tony should look for his girlfriend, wherever she.

Ask her friends, dipshit.

Don’t you dare make a move on Lottie.

Or I will kill you.

…..

Rant over for now.

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Delayed

Sorry for the delay.

Been through some crap and my computer doesn’t even work.

Meh.

I’ll TRY post up every now and again.

Anyway.. back to my feelings.

My Feelings -Options- (Part VII)

I feel like I’m becoming an option.

An option in a neverending cycle.

Chest pains are cropping up.

Possible heart attack?

Heart under too much stress?

It’s becoming difficult to breathe when I think about it.

Thinking about what happened.

I’m overthinking.

That’s what has caused it.

Maybe.

It won’t go out of my mind.

It’s stuck. It’s scarred it.

I keep feeling that were drifting apart.

Then i’ll be all alone.

My Feelings -The Nightmare- (Part VI)

I never thought I’d actually have the nightmare.

Until I fell back to sleep.

It was horrible.

I woke up, upset.

My heart was beating really fast.

Felt I couldn’t breathe and I just had to get out of my covers.

I stumbled around.

Sat down and took a deep breath.

“It was just a nightmare.”

…

My Feelings -Back on Track?- (Part V)

I saw her today.

It was a nervous feeling.

But it had a sentimental feeling to it.

We had a few laughs.

Cried alittle.

Had pizza.

I feel as though we can be together fully again.

I have permission to hit him.

But I aint the violent type.

Tempting. But I don’t want to hurt her.

She keeps blaming it on herself when she knows it’s me to blame.

I’ll be seeing her tomorrow.

Helping her with coursework.

But to get to there…

…I’d have to suffer a nightmare.

My Feelings -Destroyed- (Part IV)

This is ripping me up inside.

I can’t stand life anymore.

It has gone to the worse end of a relationship.

I know she was drunk.

I am deeply hurt and I don’t think I can recover.

To think, to actually think of those two rubbing naked bodies together.

It hurts my mind.

It has stained it.

I feel so used.

We was on a break, fine, but that should never have happened.

NOW I WILL DESTROY RICH.

I will kill him.

I will tear HIM apart.

So how he feels how I fucking feel.

She’s been getting cravings lately.

She’s probably pregnant, with HIS child inside her.

I don’t know if I can live any longer.

This life. This pain.

The only real thing left to do is die.

Naturally or suicidal.

My Feelings -Deserving?- (Part III)

Do I even deserve love?

I feel like it wants to destroy me.

Overpower me.

I say “I love you”

She says “I love you”

Only quieter.

Does she really love me?

That, I don’t have an answer to.

She knows how much I love her.

I love her more than anything in world.

Beyond the stars and far beyond the universe.

I just want her to feel loved.

A New Page

I’ve done a new page.

The Xbawks 360 page.

Go check it out now if you’re interested lolol. =D

My Feelings -Sadness- (Part II)

All I’ve done is make her cry.

I feel so shit.

She never wants to be happy with me.

I can’t do anything right.

I love her to pieces.

I need her.

She is my life.

I can’t live without her.

But all she can do is be upset.

I wish we was back to where we was rather than we are now.

It hurts. For both of us.